Reality

There comes a time in life where you take a moment, sit back, and think... Is anyone really there for you when you need them most? Or even anytime at all? I realized I put way too much devotion into my friendships, and yet I'm the one that gets the least back. I'm tired, I'm exhausted, I'm alone. I can finally see that, thanks to you. Thank you for ignoring me over something so bitty, something I had no control over. Thank you for hurting me so bad that reality had to hit me in the face and wake me up.

It was those 2 days which made me feel like we were actually family. He really cares for me and it's so sweet that he'd want to spend time with me. I miss him, but yeah. Trying to make up for lost times. 15 years is a long period.

I'm also someones daughter, not just some idiot you can use to put out your anger.

Just because you're older than me , doesn't mean that you have the right to order me around and scream at me just because someone else made you angry. I don't even know you, and worst of all, you don't deserve my respect. You treat everyone like shit, just because you think you're better than them. For an adult, you should be acting your age and learn to respect people more, whether they're the same age, younger or even older. If you want respect, you gotta earn it. And by the way you're treating others, i doubt you'll be receiving any, anytime soon.

Sleep.

I want to sleep, but i can't. It's like somethings on my mind, and i can't get rid of it. Everytime i close my eyes i start thinking about things. I want to fall asleep peacefully, but that doesn't seem to be working these days.